Who the hell reads this rubbish the old me wrote HAH.
Hey Rach, I don't even remember the password to this blogspot, I pretty much logged on from my old email address to get to this page.
Time flew by so quickly.. how are we already 22 years old?? Gee, Instead of being rebels with a 'I do what I want' attitude, we are actually looking for ways to outsmart life. How naive were we? Still..naive..? Hahah..
Well since I'm already here, better write a new entry on how glamorous life is for me. So one year ago, I thought that life was finally working out for me. Everything I have ever dreamed of as a little girl, every wish I have ever made from wishing wells had finally came true! I had finished my Bachelors in Science, found a full time career as a scientist, got myself an apartment that is still currently under construction (ready by next year), and ready to settle down. Nope!!! Life is like a roller coaster, it takes you high and fucks you right up in the ass (excuse my language). But it is true isn't it? Im sure everyone experiences it. You must be bat or a full fletch flamingo to not agree.
So one year later (now), I figured that this isn't what I want. Maybe I've never actually wanted this. But what do I want? I am no longer a scientist, nor do I have any insight to what kind of a woman I want to become. But one thing I do know is that I have always been strong. Even though many events have occurred during the past years - some great, some unbelievably heartbreaking, and some still leaves me pondering, I am still here today! I can't say it all didn't teach me anything about myself.
On a totally different topic, Buttons gave birth to seven bunnies today! My heart melted at the sight of them. All so fragile and warm. It reminded me of the first time I held buttons in my arms. Why does she have to be so cute! (Do not want to talk about the other two).
Anyway, I can't wait to see them tomorrow morning and shower them with all my love (:
Dont really feel like writing a long entry so night night.
- Dont let the bed bugs bite >:] -
YHappy Never AfterY
Thanks
Friday, March 21, 2008
There are only one in a few in this world =] i am so glad to have found someone like u, so this blog entry is written just for u =P thanks for being my friend =) =)
When no one was there for me And I thought that no one cared When the whole world walked out on me And I thought I was alone You were there
When the one I cared about the most Could care less about me When the one I gave my heart to Threw it in my face You were there
When the person I trusted Betrayed me When the person I shared a lot of memories with Can't even remember my birthday You were there
When all I needed was a friend To listen to me whine When all I needed was someone To catch my tears You were there
When my heart hurt so bad I couldn't even breath When I just wanted to crawl up and die You were there
When I started to cry After hearing that sad song When thew tears just wouldn't Stop falling down You were there
So you see I will be there until the end This is a promise I can make If you ever need me Just give me a call I will be there just as you were there for me
suddenly i feel that although life can be crappy, i still have someone to make me feel better and make me smile again (: thank you! bbgb.
YHappy Never AfterY
stupid
Monday, March 17, 2008
In this society, people often tend to do/say something to make others feel as though they are nothing.. that they are stupid. WHY? to make others feel as thou they are nothing but a piece of CRAP? To make themselves feel better maybe..? why =( ...
... worse enough. why must i be the one being hit by all these freaking crap non stop. Just keeps coming and coming and coming.. =( been busy too. so busy with waking up in the morning, study, school, homework, work, study study and more study. My life is just taken up by this =.= i am seriously bored of it.
Sometimes everyone just hits me with crap when i'm already feeling crap enough. i'm feeling that i am slowly leaving the 'social' side of my world. like i'm losing part of something.. but just can't quite figure out what. gosh.. this sounds ridicules =.=
..Life can be crap. Learn to live with it.. slowly get use to things that are holding yourself back.. maybe move on a little.. BANG. you're so use to it you don't feel it anymore.
secretly.. this is what i am trying to do. GET USE TO IT
bbgb.
YHappy Never AfterY
=(
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Been VERY VERY VERY busy lately.. coz of freakin.. school. homework. WORK! and when i say BUSY i mean BUSY BUSY~... that i don't even have time to remove my nail polish =.="
year 11 is a BUM, everyone in year 10.. i am so jealous =(
i bet you're wondering why i'm even writing in the blog when i'm SOO busy. well cath just finished a whole tonne of homework, and is feeling so relaxed =]
one more thing, -- ------ SUCK LIKE **** i don't get why teachers even become teachers when they can't teach. freaking $#^%$&^%*$%!^@&!!! DIE!!
but i'm loving teachers strike =D <3 <3
bbgum bearr.
YHappy Never AfterY
7 things
Thursday, January 31, 2008
7 things.
u must be wondering what the heck is seven things. But my randomness brought me to write this entry.
so here i go. all seven things are the important things that i love and cherish =P without them, i really dunno what life is. =D (was meant to be ten things but what the heck.. nothing else that means more than this)
Here they are, starting from one. First . My Family~ they're like another part of me, without them who am i?
Second . Friends~ i love my friends. in fact i miss my friends =( especially the ones that are overseas at the moment =( come back soon~
Three . U! Hunny~! Thanks for everything u've done for me. they are all treasured and kept in my heart (: thanks for your shoulder that has always been there when i needed it. thanks for that smile of yours that always makes my day. Ever since u became a part of my life, i've been happier than u can imagine, thank you (: love (:
Four . My Home! this is why people call it home sweet home =D
Five . Wilber and Jay! even thou they have nothing to do with me. i love loving them as my obsession over them keeps me occupied most of the time. =P
Six . Leo~! my adorable little doggy~ even thou hes always naughty, i still love him =P
Seven . my comp and music =D
okie all seven things.
love bbgbearr<3
YHappy Never AfterY
wow.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
After a conversation about burgers with Rachel i'm starting to crave burgers, and since we watched Harald and Kumar yesterday on a sleepover its starting to make me crave burgers from white castle =P
The awesome sleepover started with Leesha coming over and we both just started going crazy over Jay Chou for hours and bummed around heaps until we finally stopped and started watching brown sugar macchiato, what a great way of starting the day (: not long later someone walked into the house hands holding over his nose and ran into the toilet. it was definitely Andu, him and his blood nose. but yes. us three sat down blah blah.. i won't go blabbering on too much about the next part. We went to pick Rachel up from her house and Brandon arrived.
The rest of the night consist of watching movies(which took up bloody hours to finish as we rented 4 movies XD), eating cake, ice cream, chips and soft drinks, talking, laughing, being stupid, random, and baking. The five of us just kept getting hungry =P so half of the time, we were just making hood and eating it =P hehe XD
okay. after that i was gonna drop dead. but a piece of toast woke me up, and there i was. high again.
time went past too fast, it was four already XD so we finally decided to sleep. But NO the "scary" story somebody(Brandon!) provided about the crazy quokka man just happen to be before bedtime. that. which scared the crap out of Leesha XD Apparently, crazy quokka man rapes lil quokkas and then moved to raping girls?? hows that true? >< dont ask me =/ =/
well whatever, =P me and Andu started being evil after the story we decided to tap everyone on the shoulder whenever they're not looking, and unfortunately only worked on one person =P Leesh XD everytime when she closes her eyes there will always b taping either from me or Andu. we're evil =P
everyone soon then forgot about the crazy quokka man and fell asleep. cept for two people =P Leesh and me. it was so hard to sleep on a day like that when it was so hot even thou the aircon was on HIGH and in the living room as well~
the night after rolling around with Leesha, being annoying, crawling up and down the blankets when we're sharing it with two other people who are fast asleep. sang Jay Chou songs.. talked and being gay.. we finally fell asleep..
The next thing i know. it was already morning =P as i am the kind of person who kicks people in my sleep. i probably kicked Leesha during her sleep. rolled around the bed a lot and squishing Andu =P
and yeah =( what a fast and boring entry. dun have time~ but the sleepover was indeed fun =P
Love u all~!
bbgbearr.peace (: (:
YHappy Never AfterY
blah..
Saturday, January 26, 2008
THE SAME, still the same. what is there to do in Australia? seriously? someone tell me? =(
